shopgirljoan: (Nikki)
My comp has had some weird cockup. Basically we were listening to a Motorhead video on youtube and it turned itself off. When it got turned on it was back to factory settings. Turns out my photos were all okay, thank fuck. I have backed them up now. They were on D drive. A ton of stuff on C drive has gone. All my music, all my writing (fanfic and otherwise), all my saved AIM convos. I don't even know...

I've also been feeling bad about the fact that I feel I've messed up my life and I won't ever get anywhere. I'm a mess and I don't know where I'm going.

But I saw planes on their way to the air show! I saw the Vulcan! And a Spit! And they're so beautiful so so beautiful. I love planes, trains, bridges, feats of engineering, whatever. I don't really know jack shit about them but I love to look at them.

On another note Nikki Sixx posted a pic of himself on the toilet on his twitter. I just ... I have mixed feelings, I mean why would you do that but I'm not surprised. He is a massive attention whore. However between that and a terrible Guns and Roses fic I read last week I think the 80s Rock world is trying to kill me in some way. At least it's better than feeling like shit.

OMG Nerves

Jun. 4th, 2011 05:53 am
shopgirljoan: (Plane)
Off to Surrey in an hour or so! I have a busy week with two job interviews which is awesome, but I had a meltdown about not having done the washing yet. I have plenty of sodding time to get my clothes ready, and I've done a massive cleanup, I still started to feel so messy and gross like I live in a junkie squat or something! Then the dress I was going to wear today didn't fit like I'd have liked and I ended up having a massive crying jag on the phone to my mum, all about things I should be excited about ffs. It's partly that Paul has gout and a corn which needs to be removed and can hardly walk. He's in so much pain and has been signed off work for 10 days and is thinking about going to his parents for the week so he doesn't think about drinking or getting up and doing stuff. His mum is going to be mean to him. I had to put him together a package of books and food when I helped him home last night. He's so miserable and I might not see him for a week and I don't know where this leaves any of our normal activities or his work - it may have turned everything on its head!

Meanwhile, I wonder if anyone would like to see some old family photos? Ironically none of them are the side of the family I'm seeing, as my mum scanned and sent them. They're behind the cut.

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shopgirljoan: (Malachi Malone Air Mercenary)
I've been freaking out.

I don't know why I should be freaking out about a family gathering. But I was so nervous I'll say something stupid. Or get drunk (this is silly as I actually do have some self control). Or embarras my dad and brother. I was freaking that my tickets wouldn't arrive in time. I started to freak out about taking the fucking tube. This is pathetic but they get so full and I always bump into people on the escalators and it's not like I think they're all going to explode but there's been a shitload of 7/7 stuff lately. It's all just fuelling my nerves. I normally don't take them and just walk and take pictures and soak up some atmosphere, like I did when I went to Surrey for that wedding last year, but I need to get from Kings Cross to Waterloo to be on a certain train to be picked up. I feel a damn site better now I've been to Oxfam, got a ton of stuff done, come home and done a good clean up and thrown a ton of rubbish away and opened the window and lit a joss stick and drunk a load of water. I think I'm getting the hang of this.

Note that despite all this freaking out I've been Exited actually and I would hate to not go hence the ticket thing. But they are here. And I got the cheapest new pair of shoes ever, courtesy of Oxfam, metallic purple ones to match my pretty 1950s party dress. I'm pretty much all ready to go!

So to celebrate, I'm doing a videospam of my top five fave songs with London in them. In reverse order.

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shopgirljoan: (Default)
After the busiest week ever (which included a job interview and helping out at the Beer Festival as well as the normal stuff) I'm feeling a bit burned out and ill. Need to get better soon though as I'm going down to Surrey at the weekend for my grandma's 80th. This also means I get to see London. And see my dad for the first time in over a year and my grandma for the first time in over 10 years!

On an unrelated note, the fantards who think it's apropriate to slag off Nikki Sixx's girlfriend on his own frigging official facebook page can all fuck off.

All new DW

May. 11th, 2011 02:39 pm
shopgirljoan: (Default)

First post on DW. I hope the new username and icons will do something for my Blogging Fatigue.

I was on the university radio last week, talking about selling vintage clothing for Oxfam. I was really really nervous, I was terrified I'd fluff it or even worse make a freudian slip on air (though most of mine probably don't sound freudian without the conext of what's in my head to be honest) but it was fine. Apparently my voice managed not to sound squarky which was a relief. People up here keep asking if I'm from Essex. I'm not but I kind of sound like that recorded at times. My parents were listening online. I'm going to get a recording of it and hopefully upload it, I want to hear myself anyway.

Then the weekend got a bit weird. Saturday was fine, but Sunday I felt ill and couldn't manage my lunch and had to have a few hours sleep. Then I went to meet Paul and lost my lunch (which I'd just re-nuked in the mike and finished) into a plastic bag. I'd hardly had any booze and I can stomach it believe me. Monday I was okay again but Tuesday I had the shakes all day and my heart was going too fast. We went out and I thought I'd feel okay after that but ended up worse, felt panicky as hell, didn't fnish my drink, was sick when I got home, felt awful all night, sweating like something horrible and feeling sick and shaking and not able to sleep. I have been Off Colour all day though am feeling better having had sugary lemonade and a cupcake. It's so not like me to be ill like this!


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